I think I have Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity
Disorder (ADHD), but not in the normal sense. I mean I have no problem staying
awake and paying attention in class. I can study for 2-3 hours before I get too
restless to retain more information. I can sit and read with no problem. But I
have come to realization that people/places/things in life just don't hold
attention for too long. There are very few new things that hold my attention
for more than a moment.
I am bored. I will be
IM'ing 2-3 people, searching the net, watching tv, and listening to music all
at the same time and still be looking for more to do. I'll have work to do and
put it off day after day, just procrastinating for no reason. There are people
more than willing to occupy my time and I just don't feel like calling them. Or
they would have had my attention the day before and I don't feel like being
around them today, but maybe sometime next week I will. I don't want to sit and
have long conversations in the Ferg, I don't want to go to the movies, out to
eat, etc. I'll go to parties and stay to the end… but not because I was having
a great time, but because I was too lazy to leave and find something else to
do. I'll want to talk to people, but not feel like calling them. I'll be
thinking about someone all day but not take the time to contact them. I've
stayed up to 2 in the morning doing absolutely nothing, just cuz I didn't feel
like showering to get in the bed. Now and then something sparks my interest,
but more than likely it fades pretty quick and then i am bored again.
What's wrong with
me?
I need more to do, keep
myself and my mind occupied. I think I am happiest when I am busy, when I have
too much to do and not enough hours in the day. Right now all these free time
is not good for me. I needed a break, but I am ready for the next round of what
life has to offer. Time to step my game back up and continue the takeover….
After Christmas break.
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